Dreams

I’m a little lost right now.

by lostboundries

Let me just talk real quick about how every-time I go on this app, it feels like the layout has changed or its giving me a notification of some new feature.

To get right into things I am not moving out, at least I think. I was really hoping to, honestly it was a big part of my driving force to keep getting things done. I have been trying really HARD at school this semester, and that was a big motivator for me. The fact that i could potentially move out, but, school housing is far to expensive and my parents don’t want me doing dorm life because they think I will hate it. I mean everyone I have talked to has told me they did not like it. I guess good roommates are hard to find.

It does really suck to not be moving out, its really deflating and makes me not really want to do work haha. it was kinda one of my only motivators pushing me to finish well. Not to mention the fact that all my work for college is due within the final month because my teachers are assholes. I really do not get why teachers do that, like they’ll have everything crammed into the last 3 week of school and expect you to do well, meanwhile if you fuck up early on, you just have an F for the whole time lol. I really do not get it haha.

I mean I guess it is still good I am saving money. I only really recently made a concentrated effort to start saving so I have a tiny savings acc but its growing and I am proud of that.

So let us talk about school again

by lostboundries

My thoughts on school aren’t (most likely) ever going to change but while that is the case, I have learned that school is something that most people need.

School in and of itself is there to facilitate growing and problem solving more than anything, I’m not talking of the kind you do for an equation. I am talking of the kind you do for life, finding out what you like and are willing to put up with. Really growing as a human rather then a good worker.

Becoming a person that you can be proud of is something that I think we should all search for and try to obtain. Being happy with ourselves isn’t only something that we fulfill for ourselves, we also fulfill it for others. We create a model of ourselves that we try to project to anyone and everyone that sees us. This model is perfect as we can mold it during those school and younger years to start becoming who we want to see.

So it is January

by lostboundries

well, now that it is finally January, I might as well become a productive machine, right?

Well no, I can’t I am becoming far more of the person I want to be, and to my credit I have started off this year in good spirits. However, I have to keep in mind that my life will constantly change throughout this year and big goals are almost meaningless.

When I say big goals are almost meaningless, I mean that they most likely won’t come true. I just have to keep doing what little things I have always been doing or recently adopted and the end result will be in my favor.

I know this was kind of a shorter update and blog post but I really am trying to make this more of a constant.

Burning your own bridges (Lost Blog #6)

by lostboundries

I feel as if to feel this happy, I have somehow burned one of my own bridges or perhaps, made a deal with some unholy entity to secure my mindset for the foreseeable future.
It feels as if my whole life outlook has changed for the better (personally speaking), but I feel as if it has brought me away from the few humans I interact with.
While I don’t feel alone or lost, I do feel a little standoff-ish. But, I have no doubt that I will make more friends and life will continue as planned if not better in some way!
I love life, and I want to continue to feel that way so whatever I can do to feel that way, I will do.
When I titled this “Burning your own Bridges” I was not really sure what that mean’t, after pondering what that truly means. I’ve come to the conclusion that I have burnt various bridges on the way I used to look at things.
While I am no longer to look at life the same way, I feel it is heavily for the netter and will help me to grow in the long run.
Never be afraid to change for the better.