So for those of you who read this blog whenever I happened to post I am sorry, I got caught up in school and life and now that school is over I want to go back to using this as was originally intended. As a place to dump my thought. Now, I won’t lie, This year was a bit wild. ride. I mean I completely changed at least on the surface and some of me changed fundamentally as well. I just remember working out harder than ever during the summer, really emmbrassing that loneliness that I was trying to run away from and changing. I spent so much time by myself I often forgot to ask people to hangout, it never registered. I got what I wanted, I grew so much but I also developed a huge ego about myself. I however, don’t blame myself as it was more or less required for me to be comfortable being alone all this time. That, nonetheless would slowly ruin things. It was hard readjusting myself to help people and more over care about them and accept that maybe I was wrong on a few things.I had a large ego and as I write this I am working to develop a strong, rather malleable ego. One that can accept when it is wrong and work to understand and grow rather than one that falls back and tries to prove that it is right. I ceartinly do not want to go back to how I was before but at the same time, I do not want to stay stagnant or revert to how I was.
I also finished up the semester, It was pretty rough but I finished. There was so much that I did not understand but I still tried my best and I think I made it out ok. There were a few things that I wish could have and should have gone differently but regardless, it is over and I should work on today and the present because that is all there is and all that there ever will be.