depression

LostBlog#8

by lostboundries

LIES


I am not talking of the type who tells lies for their own benfit or justification, I am talking of the one who lies to better the ones they are lying too. a marytar in some sense.
We don’t talk of those who gladly die on a hill for our betterment and I think we should.
People should always know they are loved, But, espically those that do things in our blind spot.
Thodo that do things that we can’t, or won’t ever see
Those people are amazing and need to be respected,
Like everyone, they are trying and doing everything they can to improve.

Lost Blog #3

by lostboundries

Fighting Your demons with your voice

(The work I will be referencing is a published work by mark Manson)

Link: https://markmanson.net/how-to-overcome-your-demons

There is no way to truly win against our demons, all we can do is come to peace with them, but that war will never be won.

I think Mark Manson Is a great author and the things he talks about are very hard hitting and real.

In this short talk he talks of how to (for better or worse) deal with your demons. We often do not talk of this side of our-self for lack of being understood and maybe, also a fear of being understood.

In this short audio talk on the topic of battling demons, Mark Manson goes into a little backstory of how his monsters took over a large portion of his 20’s.
This, while not serving much in the way for discussion, allows a link of reliability to be established with the reader and writer.

My own experiences with this topic at hand make this audio track (most likely an excerpt from his book) a much more heartfelt listen and mean that much more.

Take care everyone,

Jordan pace

the fear of expectation

by lostboundries

the fear of expectation (for me) can be summed up in this poem.

“to some, my biggest challenge is nothing more then stepping over a small mole hill.

But to me, it is akin to crossing a casyim, continents. The only thing between me and the otherside, what fills all the space.

Self hatred” -J.P

now for me what is my biggest challenge right now is just having a talk and telling my parents I would like to take a break. there are plenty of problems in doing so.

1.”Isn’t that a little entitled?”

True, it kinda is, I mean it is not as if i pay for almsot anything, I don’t pay for my car (I do pay for gas and whatnot). I do not pay rent (although….I have been living in this house since i was 10 and now I’m 20), I buy alot of my own food so I can’t really use that one for either side. the last entitled thing would be that I get all my money (or most) refunded back to me by my parents that I spend on school. minus my textbooks that I bought this semsester (half of which i have not used).

2.”What do you plan to do”

sometimes, I draw blanks but, I would want to build a van to travel around in,Be a published poet, and being a traveling Barista. I don’t think it is that much of an offshot but sometimes I do, sometimes I do find myself thinking “what If I can’t do it”. I am worried of that but I will allow myself to be scared and nervous but go onward ever so steadily. If I don’t do it (and i am passionate and interested) I feel I will be mad at myself later down the road.

3.”how would you make money?”

honestly that’s a good question, however, I would make money by Being a barista which is obviously a job, upkeep for a van (unless the car itself has issues) is realtively inexpensive. Just the buy in is rather high (I”d imagine 8-10k) and hopefully being a published poet would slowly start to bring in some revnue.

So there you have it, I think those are the main concerns among others but even still those are what I think to be the most prominent.