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How I have been (what’s been going on)

by lostboundries

So, I hope you are all well but to be quite honest, I know 2021 is a bit rocky so the last thing I wanna do is take up your time incase you need yo get your affairs in order.

In brief, I have to get a Operation done on my head to replace my shunt.

What that means (longer explanation) is that I have to have my shunt from my AVM (Brain bleed) which has a 10% (added) every year to close up from scar tissue. For me, it has been 7 yrs since I have gotten the first one and have never replaced it. This means it has been 7 years of a added 10% chance (so in total 70%) of it not yet failing. I should also mention that if I do not get the surgery I will most likely die because then I will have an 80% chance it will fail and well, that will lead me to die. So, it must be said that this is kind of mandatory as far as surgery goes.

It has not really bothered me that I have to have this done, I mean it could be a lot worse haha. I could not currently be compensating for the lack of function of the current shunt and could be in a coma or worse for all I know (and yes, that means technically, any moment that could happen).

I am pretty thankful for this happening, I mean, I would not be where I was, I would not have made all the strives that I have. I also would definitely not know any of you and quite frankly that would make me sad.

I cannot control what happens throughout the day, only how I react to every given situation

Finding light in darkness (LostBlog#7)

by lostboundries

(Personal Experience)

I have found that depression Has created a orb of darkness that I am encompassed in, but while inside I can see the light shinning all around me.
Darkness is a orb that lets nothing shine in, at first I didn’t like it but I have been enveloped in it for so long that I find it comforting.
I suppose I find it comforting because I can work in it, I can feel it and it has gotten to the point where it does not phase me anymore to be sad.
Although, the shine of light is strong and vivid. I love it so much and feel good from just basking in it.

Even in an orb of darkness, I can still stretch the legs of light

Burning your own bridges (Lost Blog #6)

by lostboundries

I feel as if to feel this happy, I have somehow burned one of my own bridges or perhaps, made a deal with some unholy entity to secure my mindset for the foreseeable future.
It feels as if my whole life outlook has changed for the better (personally speaking), but I feel as if it has brought me away from the few humans I interact with.
While I don’t feel alone or lost, I do feel a little standoff-ish. But, I have no doubt that I will make more friends and life will continue as planned if not better in some way!
I love life, and I want to continue to feel that way so whatever I can do to feel that way, I will do.
When I titled this “Burning your own Bridges” I was not really sure what that mean’t, after pondering what that truly means. I’ve come to the conclusion that I have burnt various bridges on the way I used to look at things.
While I am no longer to look at life the same way, I feel it is heavily for the netter and will help me to grow in the long run.
Never be afraid to change for the better.

Feeling better (lost blog #4)

by lostboundries

Disclaimer, this is personal experience

Over the past few months there has been a worldwide pandemic that has left us very stationary and static (thanks Covid-19) state,

Even though that is the case, I have found the Quarantine to be very relaxing and proving to be the perfect scenario for personal growth (at least somewhat).

I find I have improved my self understanding as far as my mental state goes. I think my life has vastly improved, I have an understanding of what I want in life.

I am starting small project’s at scale (for me that means that I have started all of these with the intent to get them to be streams of revenue but that takes time… Lots of time)

Some of those projects are Blogging, Videography,More Poetry, things that have to do with those like editing as well.

The end goal is to have one or more of these be a stream of revenue for me so that I am able to largely do as I please without any (or little) interference.

It is and will continue to be a uphill battle for me inn my life, knowing my life is hard is somehow comforting because I know that I am alive