loneliness is a privilege not many can afford to experience. I would have not have felt this way at all if you had spoke to me about this even one month ago. But as of recent I find myself craving the alone time. where I can just think and be (rather) content on my own.but as I slowly start to see the world that I live in and those that inhabit it and think of them. As a society of humans we are very dependent on one another. so much so intact that we also feel alone and suffer physical and mental effects of loneliness.

Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible form of poverty. – Mother Theresa

Loneliness (which I have dealt with and still deal with) has run rampant for a large majority of my life. at times I felt as if I was victim to my own thoughts and memories, so self absorbed in looking down the timelines of things such as facebook and twitter. However what appeared as a more apparent problem was the fact that some of my memories from a bit of a ways back had seemed to somehow comeback front and center and were now somewhat more apparent then before. I found myself longing for human touch and feel, so much so to the point where I would do a lot of questionable things just to be around (unjust and wrong type for me) people. it felt as if I utterly needed there touch just to get through another day but that couldn’t be father (in my case).

Isolation is the one sure way to human happiness

-Glenn Gould

A man in isolation, free from the burdens other humans provide. is in a temporary paradise, stay too long and the thing you wish to get so far away from may end up becoming what you crave most. In isolation it is very easy to feel lost, hard to feel any sense of personal headway at all. there inlays where most people give up, deciding you need to work on yourself, pushing those toxic away is the easy part. In all that lies a more serious problem. the problem oof how will you manage to work on yourself all by yourself. most people just simply find a new click and change there outward appearance and try to act for as long as possible as if they’ve changed. In the process convincing themselves as well that they have done what they think they have. Spend any long term amount of time with that person and you will find they are no more different then when you first heard from them, rather, they might now be worse off, Having spent all that energy putting up a facade of sorts they have none to actually work on themselves.

What lies beyond “soul searching” as a simple saying? lots and lots of time looking into yourself, usually in isolation because if you spend all your energy in pursuit of a higher sense of self, most often then not, You have very little energy to spend on anyone else.

The act of Isolation and being alone while not for everyone. Is (In my opinion) extremely rewarding and as mentally sound as practices can be. it rewards me with a strong sense of self, as well as quite frankly giving me the needed rest I must have from people in order to pursue another day.